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Friday, June 08, 2007
I really feel like talking to you right now. To hear your voice, once again. Im starting to miss it really too much.. Your voice in my mind is starting to fade away..and that seems to be the last thing i ever want. Im so afraid to go online right now. because..im not sure what's the purpose of goin online. I dont know what am i goin to do online. I just keep wishing that u'll be there. you'll be there,talkin to me....no matter how hard i act as if i dont care abt a single shit of u..you would still care. omgawd. why am i still thinking of such stuffs?
i started reading the book that loy'd passed to me ytd.btw thanks Hong zhen.(i know you wont be reading this..but it's just right that i should thank her in any way..) yeah.and i started crying rather badly for just the first 3 chapters. i dont know why...i remembered steph saying that the front part is boring. well, guess that im just finding an excuse to cry..to cry-not for that reason. but i am...im not goin to fool myself. the fact is yes, im still trapped and i just cant seem to move on. i dont know how. i just know that time will heal all wounds.
but....i have also heard about people still heartbroken for tens of years. seriously not healed at all. Uh no..im sure i dont wana be those poeple. i wanna move on....
Today is the day that im supposed to be studying and doing my homework..but i havent done a single thing. I have been crying...daydreaming...and just doing nothing. everyday is like a new day to be wasted away by me. im like so lifeless. all i feel like doin is crying. i dont know wtf is happening to me.
I suddenly remember that i ever talked about being contented even if he couldnt come to sg this hols as long as he's fine and yes,healthy. now i heard that he's fine...and he's not coming. so i should be contented and happy right? but no,im not feeling that way.
FINE,I SHOULD.
I wana work on my photo album. but i havent even get the photo album and gather all the photos to be printed and i havent even GOT MY BIRTHDAY PARTY PHOTOS. i dont know what on earth is happening to the photos. how long more should i be waitin?????/?????? when i turn 71???????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im freaking pissed now.
im so sad. no one is talking to me online..and no one close to me is online.
is it possible to do coursework now? i shall TRY.
hope i get better soon...one last thing.i hate fridays bcos i know you'll be out with her. or out with whoever who are not a bit decent at all. i hate it. i hate it!!!!!!
PROFILE ♥
CINDY MARIA
Sweet Seventeen
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Waking up everyday with a thankful heart for the blessings from Him.
Because He has a great purpose for her.
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Friday, June 08, 2007
I really feel like talking to you right now. To hear your voice, once again. Im starting to miss it really too much.. Your voice in my mind is starting to fade away..and that seems to be the last thing i ever want. Im so afraid to go online right now. because..im not sure what's the purpose of goin online. I dont know what am i goin to do online. I just keep wishing that u'll be there. you'll be there,talkin to me....no matter how hard i act as if i dont care abt a single shit of u..you would still care. omgawd. why am i still thinking of such stuffs?
i started reading the book that loy'd passed to me ytd.btw thanks Hong zhen.(i know you wont be reading this..but it's just right that i should thank her in any way..) yeah.and i started crying rather badly for just the first 3 chapters. i dont know why...i remembered steph saying that the front part is boring. well, guess that im just finding an excuse to cry..to cry-not for that reason. but i am...im not goin to fool myself. the fact is yes, im still trapped and i just cant seem to move on. i dont know how. i just know that time will heal all wounds.
but....i have also heard about people still heartbroken for tens of years. seriously not healed at all. Uh no..im sure i dont wana be those poeple. i wanna move on....
Today is the day that im supposed to be studying and doing my homework..but i havent done a single thing. I have been crying...daydreaming...and just doing nothing. everyday is like a new day to be wasted away by me. im like so lifeless. all i feel like doin is crying. i dont know wtf is happening to me.
I suddenly remember that i ever talked about being contented even if he couldnt come to sg this hols as long as he's fine and yes,healthy. now i heard that he's fine...and he's not coming. so i should be contented and happy right? but no,im not feeling that way.
FINE,I SHOULD.
I wana work on my photo album. but i havent even get the photo album and gather all the photos to be printed and i havent even GOT MY BIRTHDAY PARTY PHOTOS. i dont know what on earth is happening to the photos. how long more should i be waitin?????/?????? when i turn 71???????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im freaking pissed now.
im so sad. no one is talking to me online..and no one close to me is online.
is it possible to do coursework now? i shall TRY.
hope i get better soon...one last thing.i hate fridays bcos i know you'll be out with her. or out with whoever who are not a bit decent at all. i hate it. i hate it!!!!!!
