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Wednesday, June 29, 2005
there are so many happenings today.
the day started off with laughters then not so happy then kinda disappointed then happy and lastly sad and confused.
i hate not to blog about all the happy moments but i don't think i can do it right now.
maybe it's because i prefer to share my joys with all my good and close friends rather than sorrows.
and blogger has been my "autistic" friend whom i share my problems and unhappyness with.
I am feeling so sad now because vivid just told me that she may be going back to indo to study.
i am so not prepared to lose another good friend of mine. i hate to see someone leave. i seriously do.
I don't want to feel the way i felt last year anymore. i don't want.although it is not exactly the same case but she is a good friend of mine. i cldn't imagine life without her. no more advices. no more secrets to share with. no more love stories and i will be losing someone whom i always turn to. although i admit that sometimes i am so jealous of her, i could not bear to lose her. i never knew that she was such a kind friend. when i read her blog the other time, i was really shocked. she wrote about edw and was telling him to take good care of me and stuff. the thing is, she has no idea that im reading her blog. i really don't know what else to say.. but please, do stay. i need you,good friend. i had only cried once for a friend in my whole life. and it was when i was in p4,when my best friend and i had to seperate. and i absolutely have no idea why i have the urge to do so right now. for vivid. maybe this explains how impt she is in my life. =(
This morning.. walked towards the school together with my indo seniors. had fun. hehe.
maybe long time no chat? perhaps. i used to kinda avoid them cos i am afraid that i'l have nothing to say to them. dumb.
anyway. i met up with edward after school at abt 3 at TPY cntrl. remembered the very first time we met..haha.
he obviously preferred my old spects. okayokay.. hahahha.
we ate at long john and the freaking table was shaky.
chatted quite much but not as much as the prev meeting. haha.
he sent me home..took mrt to bishan and then took bus home.
on the way, SO many PHS people saw us, and my Gb senior even waved to me?! and we were like..holding hands?? hahaha.
paiseh. but not very. hahaha.
well, he grabbed my hand on the bus.wahaha. the feeling wasn't as exciting as the first time. duh. hahaha.
but i was happy.
sometimes i thought of never to let it go..but hello? sure will have to let go cos hands perspire too.
wahahahah. but so far there isn't any awkward,malu moments about holding hands thingy.
erm.. but well? on my second thought, maybe have. hahahaha.
the first time when he grabbed it?
my tummy could feel some sort of this funny weird feeling.. heh,some of you know how it feels right?? lol.
okay anyway let me share about my big date...on 26.06.05.
(although no mood now)
huh. sorry i think maybe next time.
i just remembered that halim did something special to me a few days ago.
but well. it's over ,cindy.
sometimes. i really think i need someone to talk to.
i miss those days when i have that someone but i didnt cherish it.
maybe i should write to her. hehe.
til now i m quite unsure abt my feelins towards him.
how long more do i need?
♥
Friday, June 24, 2005
i'm holding back my tears.when will this feeling goes away? i seriously hate it. i am confused. i really do. no one will ever understand how i feel. neither do i.i don't deserve all your love. because i can't,i just cant bring myself to love you. there isn't any thrill tt sparks in my heart nor any excitedness when i am with you. but i am happy. yes, just happy that someone out there actually care so much about me. he is still stuck in my heart. you're just waiting to come into my heart. but i've yet to open the door.i really really wish to tell you this..but i can't. i don't want to break your heart. i know how bad it hurts. sometimes.. i think we should have remained as friends first. it's all my fault i know. i thought that being with you will erased all the thoughts of him.i'm wrong. i only end up hurting you.please forgive me. i never want everything to turn out this way..i have no idea how long we'll be together.but i've got the feeling that we won't last long. i'm guilty. frankly speaking, i am not really myself when i'm with you. I will have nothing to say.I really don't understand why the hell i'm like this.how long more do i need? 1 year has passed.but ....i don't know what else to say.i get jealous whenever she talks about him.like what's my problem?!!!!??!i havent been happy for the past few days.i've been having mood swings.i lost temper for the slightest things.i ignored his smses.i'm sorry.
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Tuesday, June 21, 2005
I loathe you,FUGLY BITCH.DAMN FREAKING DISGUSTING.stop pretending and acting.go round backstabbing everyone.who do you think you are huh?? you think i'm scared of you? NEVER. NEVER. you see that? like please.. you are NOTHING in my eyes. Hate ur grandma, loves ur grandma.. WE DON'T GIVE A DAMN for goodness sake.can't stand you seriously.ACT. ACT. ACT.acting is all you are capable of. it seems..not FACT.agitate me one more time and SEE what i'll do to you,yea?see who'll suffer next term.BITCH.
♥
I didn't know she's that nice.Read her blog and was really touched.I think i've been selfish TWICE.but can i control everything?nahh...
♥
I've been ignoring his smses lately.
what's with me??
I think of him. and another him.
and i chatted with him last night. told her to go online also.
guess they must have chatted happily.hahaha. well..that's what it's supposed to be.
Yesterday went out with people. haha. lazy to name them.LOL.
FUN lar.(jac,for you) HAHAHAHA.
she loves the sausages..LONG one. we played at spotlight.. dreaming of bcuming princesses and MEN.
WAHAHAHHAAH. yea,watched mr and mrs smith. it was *THUMBS UP*.
I love so many of the scenes in the movie.HAHAHA.
It was really HOT.
For those who haven't watched, go grab the tickets and watch! try not to blink your eyes cos you're gonna miss hot stuff. hahahaha. but for those who have watched, please do not be so DUMB to go cinema n watch it again. ahem, jac, u noe what i'm talking abt,yea?
hahahahahah.
anywayyy. Last night had a great time talking on the phone with my bestie.
i voted her the horniest queen of the night.
she's real good at THOSE. HAHAHAHAH.
i'm crazy.
i think i really had a great day yesterday.hehe.
Bought something for him finally! hehe. It's nice. thanks to loysin my sayang who told me abt it. hehe.
my sis guessed it worths 10 bucks. like WAAAT?? it's double the price.hello.
anyway, hope he likes it. ^^
I've yet to buy a nice pretty box or wrapping paper to go along with it.
maybe tmr.
I think i'm getting nervous.. i'm meeting him soon.
haha. happy but..scared?
scared that it won't turn out so well..guess so.
don't know if i would lose my first kiss.
HAHAHAHAH.
hey people, how's my new way of typing?
prefer the normal type or this one?
tag ..yea? hehe. thankieww.
More damn pimples are appearing!! I'm supposed to get rid of every single one of them by the end of this hols.
FAT hope.
better get oxy cover.HAHAHAH.
Ohyea.. my m'sia trip..
I saw THREE teachers in a shopping mall.
ms lim,ms ang and ms tang.
LIKE....what luck!
hahahahahah. but i don't think they saw me.
hehehe.
shopped quite a lot. bought my nike shoes finally.
ORIGINAL okie.
hahahahhaha. saw some really oh-so-real ones..
but end up buying good stuff.
hehe.
i though i'll get a much better price if i were to buy in M'sia. who knows when i checked out the price ytd.... it was about the same!!!!
dumb! the great singapore sale!!!!
somemore they have nicer colours here.
ugggggggh. unfair! =/
but green is not bad.hehe.
ohyea, i saw this salesgirl's spects in this shop called 'kawaii-neh'. it was GORGEOUS.
i was like..looking at it every moment. hahahaha.
it's really coool.
nice cool baby blue..it's plastic also.
think i'm gonna make new spects at KL next time.
cheap and nice.
hehehe.
Have to wake up earlyyy again tmr. aiya.
stupid yfc thingy..
i can't even help much. =/
.....
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Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Hello people. I think I'm stress. I don't want to go back to school because it is holidays. but i have to go because i have GB drill trainings. I have to go for TWO diffrent trainings. The instructor thingy and for my inter-squad competition thingy. Like please... Let me off ok. Holidays are for us to RELAX and sleep all we want and become pigs.
But sadly they just don't give us the chance to become pigs. PIGLETS can or not??
anyway. I've decided that the only solution is to go M'sia to escape. HAHAHAHA. I shall eat.sleep.eat.sleep.eat.sleep.. NO WAY. hahahaha. I'm supposed to be on diet. ssshhhhh.. shyshy* hauhauaha.
Edward is in China..holidaying. I can't reply his smses using my hp!!! this is getting on my nerves seriously. I felt sOo guilty for not replying his smses. He thought i'm ignoring him. =/ i will never do so. well, i think so far i won't. lol.
Today i went out with Jac.S. went to Bugis..i was so desperate to buy at least a top..but i alwaysssss ended up with nothing. but i'm glad today i got myself indian bangles!!! very chio. lol.
12 of them.so greeeny,bluish,shiny,just GORGEOUS okie. hehehe. erm.. today is rather fun la. but not because of jac,pls. LOL. because i'm such a fun person.LOL. hahaha. okok. have a break,have a kit-kat. hahhaah. i'm crazy today.
I've got really really so much to say about my indo trip. but kinda lazy to blog cause i haven't started packing my stuff for tmr!! hmm.. well,maybe when i come back, yea? hehe.
Time flies really fast. It has been one year since i've known you.Everything has changed. Nothing remains the same..for you. and maybe for me too.
♥
Sunday, June 12, 2005
He's on the plane.. going to China.but transitting to S'pore first. haha!
Just now msged him in frienster, wrote him a song.. (edited from somewhere of course) lol.
ohhman. i'm getting sweeter each day i'm with him. hahaha.
I think i'm really in love with him.
with Edward. Yes, him. (=
Thanks chong nehh.. for teaching me so much to say to him later. *he's calling me, maybe. lol. very excited. but very nervous.
Miss him so much. miss his voice, miss his laughter. hehe.
it's midnight already! I have no idea how long more i've to wait for him to contact me.
Just wana say..me and halim are history. Yes. I should keep my word this time.
I already have Edw, and I'm gonna have him and only him in my heart. (:
Je t'aime, edw..
♥
Saturday, June 11, 2005
Yo! I'm back. hahahah.but no time to blog. Have SO much to say seriously...so i'l blog again tomorrow. just chatted with halim.. hehe.
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Thursday, June 02, 2005
I'm no longer lonely. Someone has entered my heart. heheheh.He popped out the question yesterdayy.. at last after asking lotsa times through vivid. HAHAHA. So today is.. DAY 1. HAHAHAH. He just called me 'say...' for the first time. LOL. If only it was 'sayangg..' that would be BETTER. hahahaha..Well. but i've got my worries. Yesterday my sis and mom were back frm indo and sis told me that Mom just warned us not to stead. like... WHAT??!! I just agreeed??! then my sis was like 'debating' and asking all the why questions. but she said 'NO means NO' like...hello??? This is 2005. ohwell. Sometimes i just don't understand what she's thinking. I know it's for our own good.. blahblahblah. -.-"Anyway. I just came back from Kimage.. Just got a new haircut..more of trimming. Yeps. Before that went to Bugis to make a new pair of spects. FINALLY!!! ^^ It's.. plasticcc. It's black and orange. It's sorta nerdddy. HAHAHA. but the thing that i'm not very satisfied with is that the sides are plain. =/ well. You guys will get to see it next month when school reopens. hehehe. but for some like... JAC (i'm darn sure).. sure can't wait to see my NEW PRETTY look. HAHAHAHAHAH. okay fine. I'm kidding. Hmm.. you guys can't wait to find out about the next episode right?? HAHA! i kneww it. Let me see.. where did i stop at.................... AHA! So the next day, on... 27 May, we decided to meet up again. This time we went to Orchard. Supposed to meet at Cineleisure but in the end he waited for me at Novena Mrt station cos we both had to take bus to Novena to take MRT. BTW, I think so far he has been the one who waitedddd for me all the time. Feel kinda bad. but well, guys are supposed to be early right? at least, earlier than the girls? heheheh. yup so.. we met there and i was like.. WHOOSH. his hair is real cool. HAHA. cos he just dyed his hair that day. hehe. *but now it's dyed black again.. =/ due to parents disapproval.wasted!!* hahaha. Hmm.. if i've the chance, MAYBE i would post the neoprints here.. maybe. hehe. So.. we took the train and alighted at somerset. I think so. HAHA. That day, I suspected that my tongue was tied by something or whatsoever. I was so damn quiet. well.. he also. hahaha. so there was quite a lot of awkward silent moments. I was like... 'sai la! why can't i think of anything to talk about??' hahahaha. well.. get back to the story* we went to see if there was any movie to watch.. but none. The only available seats were those NC16 or RA movies??!! hahhahaha. so we walked to LIDO. but only can watch Madagascar.. but in the end.. chose not to watch. hahaha. so we just walked around Far East Plaza.. then went to eat.. at Es teler 77?? is that the correct name?? hahaha. I ate like a snail, PLEASE.. don't know what's with me that day. hahaha. Kinda embarrassing seriously. I wasted food.. and that was the 2nd meal i had with him. TWICe were like that. HUH. so after our dinner... we TOOK NEOPRINTS!! hahahah. I suggested la. hahahah. shy* went to HEEren and he was so funnny kayy. WEnt in to the machine and the curtain was like slightly unclosed. He was like 'heyy. this thing is so malu-ating.can i like kiap this or something??'(cos the people outside could see us) hahahaha. Hmm. Throughout the shooting process.. kinda malu. but at the same time relax?? hahhahaha. happy lah, that's for sure. WE were like ..not posing?? hahahha. how to pose sia. GUy and GIrl. hahahaha. and yes!! while waiting for it to be printed, he was like saying the Jap girls in the sample pictures look like CATS!! hahhahaha. the eyes. ahhahah. I soooOO agree. hahhaha. Cut some parts** no time to crap** so when it was like 9pm, he sent me to the bus-stop opp Far East plaza and while waiting for the freaking slow bus... we didn't talk. I was sitting. He was standing. then after sometime, the bench was clear of ppl's asses.. and so he sat down. but like... 1 hand away from me?? hahahha. anyway. he sent me home. we alighted at the bus stop opp my house and he was like saying..' man.. we have to cross the overhead bridge...' then i suggested to jay-walk. But he was saying that i was wearing skirt and we should just go by the safer way. hahahah. but in the end i insisted on jaywalking.. he said i was notty. HAHAHAH. so cute right. hahahah. GUESS WHAT. I'm soo darn lousy in jaywalking.. yet he left me alone to cross by myself??!! I was like at least expecting him to tell me when to cross or something.. but he didn't!!! hahahah. so mean. So yepp. we parted at the bus stop in front of my house. I simply said 'BYE' and went in the gate. on the way to my block.. i was already thinking if i should accompany him to wait for the bus.. but i just didn't turn back. DAMN. hahahha. but when i was already waiting for the lift.. i decided to sms him and asked him if he wanted me to do so. but he said no,since my mom was already waiting for me at home.. At that time i really couldn't decide if i should go back to the bus stop. but then i saw my tuition friend-germaine- there and i asked her for opinion. and she asked me to go and meet him again. haha. The ending?? when i was half way walking towards the bus-stop.. a bus came and he boarded it. I didn't get to send him off that night. UGH. hahahahah. He was really nice to send me home.. especially when it was so late. Feel so secured? hahahah. (:
♥
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
there are so many happenings today.
the day started off with laughters then not so happy then kinda disappointed then happy and lastly sad and confused.
i hate not to blog about all the happy moments but i don't think i can do it right now.
maybe it's because i prefer to share my joys with all my good and close friends rather than sorrows.
and blogger has been my "autistic" friend whom i share my problems and unhappyness with.
I am feeling so sad now because vivid just told me that she may be going back to indo to study.
i am so not prepared to lose another good friend of mine. i hate to see someone leave. i seriously do.
I don't want to feel the way i felt last year anymore. i don't want.although it is not exactly the same case but she is a good friend of mine. i cldn't imagine life without her. no more advices. no more secrets to share with. no more love stories and i will be losing someone whom i always turn to. although i admit that sometimes i am so jealous of her, i could not bear to lose her. i never knew that she was such a kind friend. when i read her blog the other time, i was really shocked. she wrote about edw and was telling him to take good care of me and stuff. the thing is, she has no idea that im reading her blog. i really don't know what else to say.. but please, do stay. i need you,good friend. i had only cried once for a friend in my whole life. and it was when i was in p4,when my best friend and i had to seperate. and i absolutely have no idea why i have the urge to do so right now. for vivid. maybe this explains how impt she is in my life. =(
This morning.. walked towards the school together with my indo seniors. had fun. hehe.
maybe long time no chat? perhaps. i used to kinda avoid them cos i am afraid that i'l have nothing to say to them. dumb.
anyway. i met up with edward after school at abt 3 at TPY cntrl. remembered the very first time we met..haha.
he obviously preferred my old spects. okayokay.. hahahha.
we ate at long john and the freaking table was shaky.
chatted quite much but not as much as the prev meeting. haha.
he sent me home..took mrt to bishan and then took bus home.
on the way, SO many PHS people saw us, and my Gb senior even waved to me?! and we were like..holding hands?? hahaha.
paiseh. but not very. hahaha.
well, he grabbed my hand on the bus.wahaha. the feeling wasn't as exciting as the first time. duh. hahaha.
but i was happy.
sometimes i thought of never to let it go..but hello? sure will have to let go cos hands perspire too.
wahahahah. but so far there isn't any awkward,malu moments about holding hands thingy.
erm.. but well? on my second thought, maybe have. hahahaha.
the first time when he grabbed it?
my tummy could feel some sort of this funny weird feeling.. heh,some of you know how it feels right?? lol.
okay anyway let me share about my big date...on 26.06.05.
(although no mood now)
huh. sorry i think maybe next time.
i just remembered that halim did something special to me a few days ago.
but well. it's over ,cindy.
sometimes. i really think i need someone to talk to.
i miss those days when i have that someone but i didnt cherish it.
maybe i should write to her. hehe.
til now i m quite unsure abt my feelins towards him.
how long more do i need?
♥
Friday, June 24, 2005
i'm holding back my tears.when will this feeling goes away? i seriously hate it. i am confused. i really do. no one will ever understand how i feel. neither do i.i don't deserve all your love. because i can't,i just cant bring myself to love you. there isn't any thrill tt sparks in my heart nor any excitedness when i am with you. but i am happy. yes, just happy that someone out there actually care so much about me. he is still stuck in my heart. you're just waiting to come into my heart. but i've yet to open the door.i really really wish to tell you this..but i can't. i don't want to break your heart. i know how bad it hurts. sometimes.. i think we should have remained as friends first. it's all my fault i know. i thought that being with you will erased all the thoughts of him.i'm wrong. i only end up hurting you.please forgive me. i never want everything to turn out this way..i have no idea how long we'll be together.but i've got the feeling that we won't last long. i'm guilty. frankly speaking, i am not really myself when i'm with you. I will have nothing to say.I really don't understand why the hell i'm like this.how long more do i need? 1 year has passed.but ....i don't know what else to say.i get jealous whenever she talks about him.like what's my problem?!!!!??!i havent been happy for the past few days.i've been having mood swings.i lost temper for the slightest things.i ignored his smses.i'm sorry.
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Tuesday, June 21, 2005
I loathe you,FUGLY BITCH.DAMN FREAKING DISGUSTING.stop pretending and acting.go round backstabbing everyone.who do you think you are huh?? you think i'm scared of you? NEVER. NEVER. you see that? like please.. you are NOTHING in my eyes. Hate ur grandma, loves ur grandma.. WE DON'T GIVE A DAMN for goodness sake.can't stand you seriously.ACT. ACT. ACT.acting is all you are capable of. it seems..not FACT.agitate me one more time and SEE what i'll do to you,yea?see who'll suffer next term.BITCH.
♥
I didn't know she's that nice.Read her blog and was really touched.I think i've been selfish TWICE.but can i control everything?nahh...
♥
I've been ignoring his smses lately.
what's with me??
I think of him. and another him.
and i chatted with him last night. told her to go online also.
guess they must have chatted happily.hahaha. well..that's what it's supposed to be.
Yesterday went out with people. haha. lazy to name them.LOL.
FUN lar.(jac,for you) HAHAHAHA.
she loves the sausages..LONG one. we played at spotlight.. dreaming of bcuming princesses and MEN.
WAHAHAHHAAH. yea,watched mr and mrs smith. it was *THUMBS UP*.
I love so many of the scenes in the movie.HAHAHA.
It was really HOT.
For those who haven't watched, go grab the tickets and watch! try not to blink your eyes cos you're gonna miss hot stuff. hahahaha. but for those who have watched, please do not be so DUMB to go cinema n watch it again. ahem, jac, u noe what i'm talking abt,yea?
hahahahahah.
anywayyy. Last night had a great time talking on the phone with my bestie.
i voted her the horniest queen of the night.
she's real good at THOSE. HAHAHAHAH.
i'm crazy.
i think i really had a great day yesterday.hehe.
Bought something for him finally! hehe. It's nice. thanks to loysin my sayang who told me abt it. hehe.
my sis guessed it worths 10 bucks. like WAAAT?? it's double the price.hello.
anyway, hope he likes it. ^^
I've yet to buy a nice pretty box or wrapping paper to go along with it.
maybe tmr.
I think i'm getting nervous.. i'm meeting him soon.
haha. happy but..scared?
scared that it won't turn out so well..guess so.
don't know if i would lose my first kiss.
HAHAHAHAH.
hey people, how's my new way of typing?
prefer the normal type or this one?
tag ..yea? hehe. thankieww.
More damn pimples are appearing!! I'm supposed to get rid of every single one of them by the end of this hols.
FAT hope.
better get oxy cover.HAHAHAH.
Ohyea.. my m'sia trip..
I saw THREE teachers in a shopping mall.
ms lim,ms ang and ms tang.
LIKE....what luck!
hahahahahah. but i don't think they saw me.
hehehe.
shopped quite a lot. bought my nike shoes finally.
ORIGINAL okie.
hahahahhaha. saw some really oh-so-real ones..
but end up buying good stuff.
hehe.
i though i'll get a much better price if i were to buy in M'sia. who knows when i checked out the price ytd.... it was about the same!!!!
dumb! the great singapore sale!!!!
somemore they have nicer colours here.
ugggggggh. unfair! =/
but green is not bad.hehe.
ohyea, i saw this salesgirl's spects in this shop called 'kawaii-neh'. it was GORGEOUS.
i was like..looking at it every moment. hahahaha.
it's really coool.
nice cool baby blue..it's plastic also.
think i'm gonna make new spects at KL next time.
cheap and nice.
hehehe.
Have to wake up earlyyy again tmr. aiya.
stupid yfc thingy..
i can't even help much. =/
.....
♥
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Hello people. I think I'm stress. I don't want to go back to school because it is holidays. but i have to go because i have GB drill trainings. I have to go for TWO diffrent trainings. The instructor thingy and for my inter-squad competition thingy. Like please... Let me off ok. Holidays are for us to RELAX and sleep all we want and become pigs.
But sadly they just don't give us the chance to become pigs. PIGLETS can or not??
anyway. I've decided that the only solution is to go M'sia to escape. HAHAHAHA. I shall eat.sleep.eat.sleep.eat.sleep.. NO WAY. hahahaha. I'm supposed to be on diet. ssshhhhh.. shyshy* hauhauaha.
Edward is in China..holidaying. I can't reply his smses using my hp!!! this is getting on my nerves seriously. I felt sOo guilty for not replying his smses. He thought i'm ignoring him. =/ i will never do so. well, i think so far i won't. lol.
Today i went out with Jac.S. went to Bugis..i was so desperate to buy at least a top..but i alwaysssss ended up with nothing. but i'm glad today i got myself indian bangles!!! very chio. lol.
12 of them.so greeeny,bluish,shiny,just GORGEOUS okie. hehehe. erm.. today is rather fun la. but not because of jac,pls. LOL. because i'm such a fun person.LOL. hahaha. okok. have a break,have a kit-kat. hahhaah. i'm crazy today.
I've got really really so much to say about my indo trip. but kinda lazy to blog cause i haven't started packing my stuff for tmr!! hmm.. well,maybe when i come back, yea? hehe.
Time flies really fast. It has been one year since i've known you.Everything has changed. Nothing remains the same..for you. and maybe for me too.
♥
Sunday, June 12, 2005
He's on the plane.. going to China.but transitting to S'pore first. haha!
Just now msged him in frienster, wrote him a song.. (edited from somewhere of course) lol.
ohhman. i'm getting sweeter each day i'm with him. hahaha.
I think i'm really in love with him.
with Edward. Yes, him. (=
Thanks chong nehh.. for teaching me so much to say to him later. *he's calling me, maybe. lol. very excited. but very nervous.
Miss him so much. miss his voice, miss his laughter. hehe.
it's midnight already! I have no idea how long more i've to wait for him to contact me.
Just wana say..me and halim are history. Yes. I should keep my word this time.
I already have Edw, and I'm gonna have him and only him in my heart. (:
Je t'aime, edw..
♥
Saturday, June 11, 2005
Yo! I'm back. hahahah.but no time to blog. Have SO much to say seriously...so i'l blog again tomorrow. just chatted with halim.. hehe.
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Thursday, June 02, 2005
I'm no longer lonely. Someone has entered my heart. heheheh.He popped out the question yesterdayy.. at last after asking lotsa times through vivid. HAHAHA. So today is.. DAY 1. HAHAHAH. He just called me 'say...' for the first time. LOL. If only it was 'sayangg..' that would be BETTER. hahahaha..Well. but i've got my worries. Yesterday my sis and mom were back frm indo and sis told me that Mom just warned us not to stead. like... WHAT??!! I just agreeed??! then my sis was like 'debating' and asking all the why questions. but she said 'NO means NO' like...hello??? This is 2005. ohwell. Sometimes i just don't understand what she's thinking. I know it's for our own good.. blahblahblah. -.-"Anyway. I just came back from Kimage.. Just got a new haircut..more of trimming. Yeps. Before that went to Bugis to make a new pair of spects. FINALLY!!! ^^ It's.. plasticcc. It's black and orange. It's sorta nerdddy. HAHAHA. but the thing that i'm not very satisfied with is that the sides are plain. =/ well. You guys will get to see it next month when school reopens. hehehe. but for some like... JAC (i'm darn sure).. sure can't wait to see my NEW PRETTY look. HAHAHAHAHAH. okay fine. I'm kidding. Hmm.. you guys can't wait to find out about the next episode right?? HAHA! i kneww it. Let me see.. where did i stop at.................... AHA! So the next day, on... 27 May, we decided to meet up again. This time we went to Orchard. Supposed to meet at Cineleisure but in the end he waited for me at Novena Mrt station cos we both had to take bus to Novena to take MRT. BTW, I think so far he has been the one who waitedddd for me all the time. Feel kinda bad. but well, guys are supposed to be early right? at least, earlier than the girls? heheheh. yup so.. we met there and i was like.. WHOOSH. his hair is real cool. HAHA. cos he just dyed his hair that day. hehe. *but now it's dyed black again.. =/ due to parents disapproval.wasted!!* hahaha. Hmm.. if i've the chance, MAYBE i would post the neoprints here.. maybe. hehe. So.. we took the train and alighted at somerset. I think so. HAHA. That day, I suspected that my tongue was tied by something or whatsoever. I was so damn quiet. well.. he also. hahaha. so there was quite a lot of awkward silent moments. I was like... 'sai la! why can't i think of anything to talk about??' hahahaha. well.. get back to the story* we went to see if there was any movie to watch.. but none. The only available seats were those NC16 or RA movies??!! hahhahaha. so we walked to LIDO. but only can watch Madagascar.. but in the end.. chose not to watch. hahaha. so we just walked around Far East Plaza.. then went to eat.. at Es teler 77?? is that the correct name?? hahaha. I ate like a snail, PLEASE.. don't know what's with me that day. hahaha. Kinda embarrassing seriously. I wasted food.. and that was the 2nd meal i had with him. TWICe were like that. HUH. so after our dinner... we TOOK NEOPRINTS!! hahahah. I suggested la. hahahah. shy* went to HEEren and he was so funnny kayy. WEnt in to the machine and the curtain was like slightly unclosed. He was like 'heyy. this thing is so malu-ating.can i like kiap this or something??'(cos the people outside could see us) hahahaha. Hmm. Throughout the shooting process.. kinda malu. but at the same time relax?? hahhahaha. happy lah, that's for sure. WE were like ..not posing?? hahahha. how to pose sia. GUy and GIrl. hahahaha. and yes!! while waiting for it to be printed, he was like saying the Jap girls in the sample pictures look like CATS!! hahhahaha. the eyes. ahhahah. I soooOO agree. hahhaha. Cut some parts** no time to crap** so when it was like 9pm, he sent me to the bus-stop opp Far East plaza and while waiting for the freaking slow bus... we didn't talk. I was sitting. He was standing. then after sometime, the bench was clear of ppl's asses.. and so he sat down. but like... 1 hand away from me?? hahahha. anyway. he sent me home. we alighted at the bus stop opp my house and he was like saying..' man.. we have to cross the overhead bridge...' then i suggested to jay-walk. But he was saying that i was wearing skirt and we should just go by the safer way. hahahah. but in the end i insisted on jaywalking.. he said i was notty. HAHAHAH. so cute right. hahahah. GUESS WHAT. I'm soo darn lousy in jaywalking.. yet he left me alone to cross by myself??!! I was like at least expecting him to tell me when to cross or something.. but he didn't!!! hahahah. so mean. So yepp. we parted at the bus stop in front of my house. I simply said 'BYE' and went in the gate. on the way to my block.. i was already thinking if i should accompany him to wait for the bus.. but i just didn't turn back. DAMN. hahahha. but when i was already waiting for the lift.. i decided to sms him and asked him if he wanted me to do so. but he said no,since my mom was already waiting for me at home.. At that time i really couldn't decide if i should go back to the bus stop. but then i saw my tuition friend-germaine- there and i asked her for opinion. and she asked me to go and meet him again. haha. The ending?? when i was half way walking towards the bus-stop.. a bus came and he boarded it. I didn't get to send him off that night. UGH. hahahahah. He was really nice to send me home.. especially when it was so late. Feel so secured? hahahah. (:
