♥
Saturday, June 30, 2007
im starting to miss everyone.
I miss my parents, sis and him. Loy said i've 'thrown her face' for doing those stuffs. hahaha. im so sorry......... im so afraid i'll lose control and contact him again soon. :S
why am i feelin this way right now? Instead of moving on well...
reminder, 13 more weeks to Olevels. GOOD LUCK.
♥
Saturday, June 23, 2007
omgawd sch is starting in 2 days time. To be precised, it's less than 2 days..im too lazy to count how many hours we are left with cos im so not ready to face the fact. Im such a big time slacker. 'all i wana do is to find a way back into love........' im listening to the song Way Back Into Love. haha. I miss you,edu...... i freakin miss you so much. :'(
When will this feeling go away? far far away from me? it's such a torture...you're like torturing me mentally every night and almost everyday. I wished you're right in front of me whenever i open my eyes to live each day. I want to see you..i want to feel you.
I cant wait for another 2 or 3 years....life would change,so much. and i hope it would be for the better.
when would we meet again? or are we even going to meet ever again???
i feel so empty. But i do hope that all these are blessings in disguise for us.
♥
Saturday, June 09, 2007
omgawd.
i remembered crying yesterday for you bcos of her.
but here i am, laughing already.
all i can say is..that's really fast! and yes, it's what u deserve to get for going out with bitches.
i wonder what's coming up next.
♥
Friday, June 08, 2007
I really feel like talking to you right now. To hear your voice, once again. Im starting to miss it really too much.. Your voice in my mind is starting to fade away..and that seems to be the last thing i ever want. Im so afraid to go online right now. because..im not sure what's the purpose of goin online. I dont know what am i goin to do online. I just keep wishing that u'll be there. you'll be there,talkin to me....no matter how hard i act as if i dont care abt a single shit of u..you would still care. omgawd. why am i still thinking of such stuffs?
i started reading the book that loy'd passed to me ytd.btw thanks Hong zhen.(i know you wont be reading this..but it's just right that i should thank her in any way..) yeah.and i started crying rather badly for just the first 3 chapters. i dont know why...i remembered steph saying that the front part is boring. well, guess that im just finding an excuse to cry..to cry-not for that reason. but i am...im not goin to fool myself. the fact is yes, im still trapped and i just cant seem to move on. i dont know how. i just know that time will heal all wounds.
but....i have also heard about people still heartbroken for tens of years. seriously not healed at all. Uh no..im sure i dont wana be those poeple. i wanna move on....
Today is the day that im supposed to be studying and doing my homework..but i havent done a single thing. I have been crying...daydreaming...and just doing nothing. everyday is like a new day to be wasted away by me. im like so lifeless. all i feel like doin is crying. i dont know wtf is happening to me.
I suddenly remember that i ever talked about being contented even if he couldnt come to sg this hols as long as he's fine and yes,healthy. now i heard that he's fine...and he's not coming. so i should be contented and happy right? but no,im not feeling that way.
FINE,I SHOULD.
I wana work on my photo album. but i havent even get the photo album and gather all the photos to be printed and i havent even GOT MY BIRTHDAY PARTY PHOTOS. i dont know what on earth is happening to the photos. how long more should i be waitin?????/?????? when i turn 71???????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im freaking pissed now.
im so sad. no one is talking to me online..and no one close to me is online.
is it possible to do coursework now? i shall TRY.
hope i get better soon...one last thing.i hate fridays bcos i know you'll be out with her. or out with whoever who are not a bit decent at all. i hate it. i hate it!!!!!!
♥
Saturday, June 02, 2007
My eyes are closing soon. I think im exhausted after staying over for 2 nights at LOY SINYI"S house. Please ah, don't think dirty or anything. We just talk. almost non-stop i think. That's why my throat is like so dry and because the weather is also freaking hot which kinda worries me..I think i have no choice but to give in to the "weakling-ness" in me. which also means.. yes,im falling sick soon.
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hey loy, enough? hahaha. she said this in msn just a few minutes ago.
Vogue conspiracies ♥ says:
okay. i wan my name on ur blog postHAHA.It's been 2 years already. I dont know whether i should type :) or :'(
sooooo many many freaking many things happened in these 2 years time. good,bad,neutral..all in it. but yea, just like what i've told loy..im thankful that it ALL happened. it's just part and parcel of life. Frankly speaking, i am rather disappointed last night, cos nothing happened. Maybe you forgot about it or more likely that..you don't wana care about it. Yeah..i mean. that's the way we should be right now.
agh.
I MISS YOU.the colour Red can show if you're angry or sometimes,you're in love. But in this case, i'm using it because i miss you like crazy but i hate u like crazy too. It's confusing. okay, i think im just crazy.
By the way, thanks loyy for the stay. It's a pleasant and enjoyable one. :)
it's my first stayover at my girlfriend's hse!
♥
Saturday, June 30, 2007
im starting to miss everyone.
I miss my parents, sis and him. Loy said i've 'thrown her face' for doing those stuffs. hahaha. im so sorry......... im so afraid i'll lose control and contact him again soon. :S
why am i feelin this way right now? Instead of moving on well...
reminder, 13 more weeks to Olevels. GOOD LUCK.
♥
Saturday, June 23, 2007
omgawd sch is starting in 2 days time. To be precised, it's less than 2 days..im too lazy to count how many hours we are left with cos im so not ready to face the fact. Im such a big time slacker. 'all i wana do is to find a way back into love........' im listening to the song Way Back Into Love. haha. I miss you,edu...... i freakin miss you so much. :'(
When will this feeling go away? far far away from me? it's such a torture...you're like torturing me mentally every night and almost everyday. I wished you're right in front of me whenever i open my eyes to live each day. I want to see you..i want to feel you.
I cant wait for another 2 or 3 years....life would change,so much. and i hope it would be for the better.
when would we meet again? or are we even going to meet ever again???
i feel so empty. But i do hope that all these are blessings in disguise for us.
♥
Saturday, June 09, 2007
omgawd.
i remembered crying yesterday for you bcos of her.
but here i am, laughing already.
all i can say is..that's really fast! and yes, it's what u deserve to get for going out with bitches.
i wonder what's coming up next.
♥
Friday, June 08, 2007
I really feel like talking to you right now. To hear your voice, once again. Im starting to miss it really too much.. Your voice in my mind is starting to fade away..and that seems to be the last thing i ever want. Im so afraid to go online right now. because..im not sure what's the purpose of goin online. I dont know what am i goin to do online. I just keep wishing that u'll be there. you'll be there,talkin to me....no matter how hard i act as if i dont care abt a single shit of u..you would still care. omgawd. why am i still thinking of such stuffs?
i started reading the book that loy'd passed to me ytd.btw thanks Hong zhen.(i know you wont be reading this..but it's just right that i should thank her in any way..) yeah.and i started crying rather badly for just the first 3 chapters. i dont know why...i remembered steph saying that the front part is boring. well, guess that im just finding an excuse to cry..to cry-not for that reason. but i am...im not goin to fool myself. the fact is yes, im still trapped and i just cant seem to move on. i dont know how. i just know that time will heal all wounds.
but....i have also heard about people still heartbroken for tens of years. seriously not healed at all. Uh no..im sure i dont wana be those poeple. i wanna move on....
Today is the day that im supposed to be studying and doing my homework..but i havent done a single thing. I have been crying...daydreaming...and just doing nothing. everyday is like a new day to be wasted away by me. im like so lifeless. all i feel like doin is crying. i dont know wtf is happening to me.
I suddenly remember that i ever talked about being contented even if he couldnt come to sg this hols as long as he's fine and yes,healthy. now i heard that he's fine...and he's not coming. so i should be contented and happy right? but no,im not feeling that way.
FINE,I SHOULD.
I wana work on my photo album. but i havent even get the photo album and gather all the photos to be printed and i havent even GOT MY BIRTHDAY PARTY PHOTOS. i dont know what on earth is happening to the photos. how long more should i be waitin?????/?????? when i turn 71???????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im freaking pissed now.
im so sad. no one is talking to me online..and no one close to me is online.
is it possible to do coursework now? i shall TRY.
hope i get better soon...one last thing.i hate fridays bcos i know you'll be out with her. or out with whoever who are not a bit decent at all. i hate it. i hate it!!!!!!
♥
Saturday, June 02, 2007
My eyes are closing soon. I think im exhausted after staying over for 2 nights at LOY SINYI"S house. Please ah, don't think dirty or anything. We just talk. almost non-stop i think. That's why my throat is like so dry and because the weather is also freaking hot which kinda worries me..I think i have no choice but to give in to the "weakling-ness" in me. which also means.. yes,im falling sick soon.
Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi Loy Sinyi
hey loy, enough? hahaha. she said this in msn just a few minutes ago.
Vogue conspiracies ♥ says:
okay. i wan my name on ur blog postHAHA.It's been 2 years already. I dont know whether i should type :) or :'(
sooooo many many freaking many things happened in these 2 years time. good,bad,neutral..all in it. but yea, just like what i've told loy..im thankful that it ALL happened. it's just part and parcel of life. Frankly speaking, i am rather disappointed last night, cos nothing happened. Maybe you forgot about it or more likely that..you don't wana care about it. Yeah..i mean. that's the way we should be right now.
agh.
I MISS YOU.the colour Red can show if you're angry or sometimes,you're in love. But in this case, i'm using it because i miss you like crazy but i hate u like crazy too. It's confusing. okay, i think im just crazy.
By the way, thanks loyy for the stay. It's a pleasant and enjoyable one. :)
it's my first stayover at my girlfriend's hse!
