♥
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
June hols has arrived but i think no one has the mood to enjoy and all..it is rather fake. I mean..it's not exactly a semester break for us, Sec fours.
Anyway i've gotten back my report book.I've improved for my forever-seemed-to-fail subjects which are maths and science. It really shows that i can do it after all. haha :D well, hope i can further improve on it.
I dont know why it seems that after the PTC, my buddies are not going online anymore. I really wonder what's happening to them..are they like revising some subjects right at this moment?? ok great,loy just replied. so she's been napping since just now. pheww.
Let's see what i wana do in this so-called-holiday:
1)Exercise exercise and exercise (badminton,hulla hooping and jogging at least)
2)Read storybooks
3)Practise cooking for practical exams- dreadsss..
4)Should i have a haircut??im afraid i'll regret but yea,i know it will not stop growing unless i die
5) OHYA...working on my photoalbum! should i print the pics of
you and me?i still cant decide.
6)Revise like mad. I really mean MAD...i hope i can!
7) and of course...shoppingg!updating my wardrobe..i seriously need to.
OHyeaa..last night i got myself 50 bucks from my bro for makin the TASTIEST milo for him.
WEKEKE.
let's talk about serious stuff now. i dont mean that those above are not serious talk ok..
He's stirring up my feelings again. Disturbing my fragile heart again and again. how irritating.
I know you know how im feeling. You know that you're the one taking control of almost everything right now. You make me happy, you make me sad. You make me tear, you make me laugh. and i really dont know why am i letting you do all these to me. It seems that i've lost control of myself and letting you take control instead. its weird. I mean,look... its unfair for everyone.
sometimes, I think just because of the 2 of us, many people are affected as well.
I had a good time last night. we chatted
happily, finally. and i cant deny that i enjoy the conversations a lot,and the phonecall too. should i be saying thank you? or should i not be happy? because it is a matter of fact that you're going to hurt me again soon..real soon.i've been listening to this song...
Irreplaceable. lovin itTo the left To the left
To the left To the left
Mmmm to the left, to the left
Everything you own in the box to the left
In the closet, that's my stuff
Yes, if I bought it, baby, please don't touch
And keep talking that mess, that's fine
Could you walk and talk, at the same time?
And it's my name that's on that tag
So go move your bags, let me call you a cab
Standing in the front yard, telling me
How I'm such a fool, talking 'bout
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable
So go ahead and get gone
Call up that chick, and see if she's home
Oops I bet you thought, that I didn't know
What did you think
I was putting you out for?
Because you was untrue
Rolling her around in the car that I bought you
Baby, drop them keys
Hurry up, before your taxi leaves
Standing in the front yard, telling me
How I'm such a fool, talking 'bout
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable (irreplaceable)
So since I'm not your everything (irreplaceable)
How about I'll be nothing (nothing)?
Nothing at all to you (nothing, nothing)
Baby I won't shed a tear for you (I won't shed a tear for you)
I won't lose a wink of sleep (a wink of sleep)
'Cause the truth of the matter is (truth is)
Replacing you is so easy
To the left, to the left.
To the left, to the left.
Mmmmm
To the left, to the left.
Everything you own in the box to the left
To the left, to the left.
Don't you ever for a second get to thinking
You're irreplaceable
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You must not know 'bout me (baby)
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute
You can pack all your bags we're finished
(you must not know 'bout me)'
Cause you made your bed now lay in it
(you must not know 'bout me)
I could have another you by tomorrow
Don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable
♥
Monday, May 21, 2007
Today you asked for this blog again. I want you to read it and know it....but i really dont think we are both ready for it.not yet. im sorry,i know you must be really curious and all..you told me u're disappointed. but yea, we have to continue waiting for that someday to come.
haha.you've got a new her already but you're tellin me to relax and cool down. should i be laughing or what? i dont know how to even react and feel for anything....i dont know how i should be. You said today...there's nothing between you guys,just friends. ok,i'll see.
and i wonder how long more you'll tell me and say that this blog matters to you.
i miss the old edu. now i dont even know if i should trust whatever things that you've ever said to me..
and why should i keep my promise when u dont keep yours?
i wonder if you'll be coming this hols. i want you to come but a part of me dont want. bcos i am so aware that it's not going to be easy after that. and i really dont know if i would be able to take anymore of it.
anyway,i think i'm moving on...slowly at least.
i dont wana be trapped any longer.
♥
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
You go around bullshitting,don't you?
claiming i was your first love,talkin about plans for the future and all.what do you do that for,seriously???so i have always been right. You're still childish. til at this point of time, 18 years old this year?? but i guess u got the 15 year old mind.
I have been outdated.now it's kinda clear that yeah, i really got to check your profile out there to get things clear myself,isnt it? I get it now. What a sweeeeeeeeeeeeetttt day you had heh. good for you. YEAHHH..GOOD.GOOOOOD. fuck your ass off la
i know i'll be the last person you'll ever need in your life. Forget about how it was back then. I was fooled. People change as their environment change. They adapt to it. and so do you. adapt to your friends' lifestyles........its funny. its downright hilarious, you know. YOU were the one tellin me how gross and cocky he was...how much you couldnt stand him.....how bitchy and slutty the girls were.....but look at the reality right now. come on, you're already PART of them. you suck..you really are dumb. Why let them influence you and let them ruin your life??
OKAY...great to see that u enjoy your life so much right there. but yea, WHAT LIFE??nightlife........and all those meaningless and useless life you've got. You're doing it almost all your life right now, enjoying it. we'll see how things go next time. i've advised you like thousand of times.....and i'm tired. I've had enough.....what do u take me as? when you got into some deep trouble or problems then you'll go..'that's it,i should find cindy.' but right now,it seems that i have to say SORRY,i cant help you in any way. but well,im not expecting all thse anymore,since you've got her now,dont you?Im sounding really jealous. my eyes are turning green or something..i cant deny that. but let me tell you, what comes around really goes around.
haha...best friends, you were saying. what crap?? so you're tellin me that whatever that comes right out from your mouth are bullshit or some craps of vibrations of the air...then fine,i'll remember you for that for my whole life. you are not,NOT going to leave a good impression on me. Im sorry, you dont want me to hate you. but you CHOOSE for me to hate you.
Im the one suffering this time. Im the one who seems to be taking all the blames...and im the mean one. whatever. u can take less than 1 month to move on. i make sure im going to take less than that from now on to pick myself up again. I may miss you, but i miss the old you..which no longer exists in this world. i never know the new you,edward.
♥
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
I am feeling all the chills that's running down my spine.
why is it that everything change so much just within 6 mths? is 6 months a very long time?
thanks for putting up that display pic and reminding me where i am. I guess you know, that my sense of direction is really bad. :)
but yea, i wont get lost.
what exactly are you feeling deep down inside?
you are somehow tellin me that there's still sumtin going on yet we both know it's over. It hurts badly whenever i see girls who are downright bitches around you. its just disgusting...it is soo so disgusting. It is even harder to imagine that someone whom i was once so close with is fooling around with them.
why?yes,perhaps, i should believe that they're the ones looking for you.but when i come to think of it, don't you think that there's a reason that makes it all happen?
it's all bcos of your doings. its all in your behaviour and the way you carry yourself. you flirt, they flirt back, even more.
anyway,the life is yours,not mine.
I have no right to care.
♥
Friday, May 04, 2007
You called me on wednesday.
I was shocked....and yeah, very happy deep inside.
but why didn't the phonecall be a good one? as in..why is it that,u call only because you got something bad to tell me?
You make me worry... I really don't want anything bad to happen to you. I rather not see you ever again...than seeing you in pain and worry.
I can't wait to meet you soon, edward. I've been thinking so much about it, even during exams and revisions. Im so excited, Im so nervous and Im dreaming so much about it.
when are you coming?
Ohya, he was asking for my blogadd. I didnt expect him to remember about it. Seems that he is really curious about these since long time ago.. but well,not now. not the right time yet.
i cant possibly continue writing all these thoughts after you knowing it. It'll be weird, cos it's over between us yet deep down inside me, it's not exactly over yet.
i'll sound really stupid to you.
♥
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
June hols has arrived but i think no one has the mood to enjoy and all..it is rather fake. I mean..it's not exactly a semester break for us, Sec fours.
Anyway i've gotten back my report book.I've improved for my forever-seemed-to-fail subjects which are maths and science. It really shows that i can do it after all. haha :D well, hope i can further improve on it.
I dont know why it seems that after the PTC, my buddies are not going online anymore. I really wonder what's happening to them..are they like revising some subjects right at this moment?? ok great,loy just replied. so she's been napping since just now. pheww.
Let's see what i wana do in this so-called-holiday:
1)Exercise exercise and exercise (badminton,hulla hooping and jogging at least)
2)Read storybooks
3)Practise cooking for practical exams- dreadsss..
4)Should i have a haircut??im afraid i'll regret but yea,i know it will not stop growing unless i die
5) OHYA...working on my photoalbum! should i print the pics of
you and me?i still cant decide.
6)Revise like mad. I really mean MAD...i hope i can!
7) and of course...shoppingg!updating my wardrobe..i seriously need to.
OHyeaa..last night i got myself 50 bucks from my bro for makin the TASTIEST milo for him.
WEKEKE.
let's talk about serious stuff now. i dont mean that those above are not serious talk ok..
He's stirring up my feelings again. Disturbing my fragile heart again and again. how irritating.
I know you know how im feeling. You know that you're the one taking control of almost everything right now. You make me happy, you make me sad. You make me tear, you make me laugh. and i really dont know why am i letting you do all these to me. It seems that i've lost control of myself and letting you take control instead. its weird. I mean,look... its unfair for everyone.
sometimes, I think just because of the 2 of us, many people are affected as well.
I had a good time last night. we chatted
happily, finally. and i cant deny that i enjoy the conversations a lot,and the phonecall too. should i be saying thank you? or should i not be happy? because it is a matter of fact that you're going to hurt me again soon..real soon.i've been listening to this song...
Irreplaceable. lovin itTo the left To the left
To the left To the left
Mmmm to the left, to the left
Everything you own in the box to the left
In the closet, that's my stuff
Yes, if I bought it, baby, please don't touch
And keep talking that mess, that's fine
Could you walk and talk, at the same time?
And it's my name that's on that tag
So go move your bags, let me call you a cab
Standing in the front yard, telling me
How I'm such a fool, talking 'bout
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable
So go ahead and get gone
Call up that chick, and see if she's home
Oops I bet you thought, that I didn't know
What did you think
I was putting you out for?
Because you was untrue
Rolling her around in the car that I bought you
Baby, drop them keys
Hurry up, before your taxi leaves
Standing in the front yard, telling me
How I'm such a fool, talking 'bout
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable (irreplaceable)
So since I'm not your everything (irreplaceable)
How about I'll be nothing (nothing)?
Nothing at all to you (nothing, nothing)
Baby I won't shed a tear for you (I won't shed a tear for you)
I won't lose a wink of sleep (a wink of sleep)
'Cause the truth of the matter is (truth is)
Replacing you is so easy
To the left, to the left.
To the left, to the left.
Mmmmm
To the left, to the left.
Everything you own in the box to the left
To the left, to the left.
Don't you ever for a second get to thinking
You're irreplaceable
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You must not know 'bout me (baby)
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute
You can pack all your bags we're finished
(you must not know 'bout me)'
Cause you made your bed now lay in it
(you must not know 'bout me)
I could have another you by tomorrow
Don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable
♥
Monday, May 21, 2007
Today you asked for this blog again. I want you to read it and know it....but i really dont think we are both ready for it.not yet. im sorry,i know you must be really curious and all..you told me u're disappointed. but yea, we have to continue waiting for that someday to come.
haha.you've got a new her already but you're tellin me to relax and cool down. should i be laughing or what? i dont know how to even react and feel for anything....i dont know how i should be. You said today...there's nothing between you guys,just friends. ok,i'll see.
and i wonder how long more you'll tell me and say that this blog matters to you.
i miss the old edu. now i dont even know if i should trust whatever things that you've ever said to me..
and why should i keep my promise when u dont keep yours?
i wonder if you'll be coming this hols. i want you to come but a part of me dont want. bcos i am so aware that it's not going to be easy after that. and i really dont know if i would be able to take anymore of it.
anyway,i think i'm moving on...slowly at least.
i dont wana be trapped any longer.
♥
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
You go around bullshitting,don't you?
claiming i was your first love,talkin about plans for the future and all.what do you do that for,seriously???so i have always been right. You're still childish. til at this point of time, 18 years old this year?? but i guess u got the 15 year old mind.
I have been outdated.now it's kinda clear that yeah, i really got to check your profile out there to get things clear myself,isnt it? I get it now. What a sweeeeeeeeeeeeetttt day you had heh. good for you. YEAHHH..GOOD.GOOOOOD. fuck your ass off la
i know i'll be the last person you'll ever need in your life. Forget about how it was back then. I was fooled. People change as their environment change. They adapt to it. and so do you. adapt to your friends' lifestyles........its funny. its downright hilarious, you know. YOU were the one tellin me how gross and cocky he was...how much you couldnt stand him.....how bitchy and slutty the girls were.....but look at the reality right now. come on, you're already PART of them. you suck..you really are dumb. Why let them influence you and let them ruin your life??
OKAY...great to see that u enjoy your life so much right there. but yea, WHAT LIFE??nightlife........and all those meaningless and useless life you've got. You're doing it almost all your life right now, enjoying it. we'll see how things go next time. i've advised you like thousand of times.....and i'm tired. I've had enough.....what do u take me as? when you got into some deep trouble or problems then you'll go..'that's it,i should find cindy.' but right now,it seems that i have to say SORRY,i cant help you in any way. but well,im not expecting all thse anymore,since you've got her now,dont you?Im sounding really jealous. my eyes are turning green or something..i cant deny that. but let me tell you, what comes around really goes around.
haha...best friends, you were saying. what crap?? so you're tellin me that whatever that comes right out from your mouth are bullshit or some craps of vibrations of the air...then fine,i'll remember you for that for my whole life. you are not,NOT going to leave a good impression on me. Im sorry, you dont want me to hate you. but you CHOOSE for me to hate you.
Im the one suffering this time. Im the one who seems to be taking all the blames...and im the mean one. whatever. u can take less than 1 month to move on. i make sure im going to take less than that from now on to pick myself up again. I may miss you, but i miss the old you..which no longer exists in this world. i never know the new you,edward.
♥
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
I am feeling all the chills that's running down my spine.
why is it that everything change so much just within 6 mths? is 6 months a very long time?
thanks for putting up that display pic and reminding me where i am. I guess you know, that my sense of direction is really bad. :)
but yea, i wont get lost.
what exactly are you feeling deep down inside?
you are somehow tellin me that there's still sumtin going on yet we both know it's over. It hurts badly whenever i see girls who are downright bitches around you. its just disgusting...it is soo so disgusting. It is even harder to imagine that someone whom i was once so close with is fooling around with them.
why?yes,perhaps, i should believe that they're the ones looking for you.but when i come to think of it, don't you think that there's a reason that makes it all happen?
it's all bcos of your doings. its all in your behaviour and the way you carry yourself. you flirt, they flirt back, even more.
anyway,the life is yours,not mine.
I have no right to care.
♥
Friday, May 04, 2007
You called me on wednesday.
I was shocked....and yeah, very happy deep inside.
but why didn't the phonecall be a good one? as in..why is it that,u call only because you got something bad to tell me?
You make me worry... I really don't want anything bad to happen to you. I rather not see you ever again...than seeing you in pain and worry.
I can't wait to meet you soon, edward. I've been thinking so much about it, even during exams and revisions. Im so excited, Im so nervous and Im dreaming so much about it.
when are you coming?
Ohya, he was asking for my blogadd. I didnt expect him to remember about it. Seems that he is really curious about these since long time ago.. but well,not now. not the right time yet.
i cant possibly continue writing all these thoughts after you knowing it. It'll be weird, cos it's over between us yet deep down inside me, it's not exactly over yet.
i'll sound really stupid to you.
