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Monday, October 30, 2006
Do guys ever know how it feels to have menstrual cramps?? NEVER. what they have is a dick.and balls. that's all. Im so angry at this particular guy who is so called my boyfriend. I should use my favourite word which even my maid at home knows that it's my all-time description to describe anyone that irritates me. Disgusting.
ok so im having a bad cramp today. i tried to sleep and i extended my sleeping time since i had a difficulty to really fall asleep. This caused us to cancel our shopping trip. ok i know he had been waiting for me the whole day....but no one expects that i would be having some stupid pains right?? so when i woke up and i called him, things seemed fine and i said sorry to him. i even ask twice if he's angry...and he said 'no..' i was like 'okay...' and then finally my weird feeling came true...he was not fine about it AT ALL. we started shouting at each other on the phone...he said he's not blaming me for having period pain but he blames me because i didnt limit my sleep. what a big joke! i slept for 2 hours til 5 and i think i totally deserve the sleep. look, im in pain and i didnt have a good night sleep,worriying abt my olevel today.. unlike him totally who has been playing some games til 2 and woke up only at 10+. and he's stupidly blaming me for sleeping for too long. he said..i did that on purpose bcos i feel it was okay to make him wait and cancel the trip. Oh gosh. even if i forced myself to wake up and go shopping..i dont think we'll have a great time with me complaining of pain here and there. anyway i admitted my mistake and i ask him so whats his fault this time..and he said he couldnt find any and want me to say it. if i were to say...it'll go like this. ' DO YOU KNOW HOW TIRED AND PAINFUL I AM FEELING? PLUS ALL YOUR SCOLDINGS AND U NEVER EVEN TRY TO UNDERSTAND ME. ALL U THINK IS THAT TIME IS RUNNING OUT AND REGARDLESS OF ANYTHING, I SHOULDNT HAVE CANCELLED THE PLAN. YOU THINK IM A ROBOT OR WHAT. AND I JUST PRAISED U AS A GENTLEMAN 2 DAYS AGO AND YET U ARE TALKING TO ME IN THAT MANNER. AND I AM ALWAYS AT FAULT IN EVERY SITUATION. U CLAIMED I AM YOUR FIRST LOVE BUT I FELT U TREAT ME JUST LIKE ANY OTHER GIRL." the worst thing is, when i totally broke down on the phone, he got damn fed up and say something like 'go ahead and cry all you want. i'll not give a single damn abt it' like WTF. in my whole entire life.................he's the first person and a GUY to say that to me. doesnt he realise how bad it felt when i already started crying? if it wasnt that bad, i wouldnt have broken down at the first place. PLus that stupid line he added on top of everything... i hang up the phone straight away. I couldnt take all the stupid things he's trying to scold and blame me about. and somemore, he said he is my slave n i order him around. then whats the point of being in a relationship???????? it is downright stupid. anyway its my first time to say 'WTF' to him..i cant take it anymore. ive apologised abt everything, he didnt accept it and even claimed that i did not even apologise. FOREVER like that. i feel that its like an excuse he's trying to find to keep blaming me for everything that happened. why??? come on man. its been 1 year and 5 mths and he's still behaving like that. dont u feel its childish? dont u feel so ungentlemanly? dont u feel sick and tired of it? oh i just remembered him saying that quarrels are okay........and i always take it too seriously. MAN. if this were a marriage...... i really cant imagine the ending. Should i feel sad or angry? or both? why does it happen alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll the time? i dont want. i dont want, u get me? no, u dont.
Guys are jerks.
although i still think that not all guys fall on that category.but MOST,yes.
cant u just understand? all i ever wanted is just your understanding and patience....and stop blaming others and not looking at what you've done yourself. I always admit my mistakes to you when these sort of things happen...but have you?
PROFILE ♥
CINDY MARIA
Sweet Seventeen
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Waking up everyday with a thankful heart for the blessings from Him.
Because He has a great purpose for her.
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Monday, October 30, 2006
Do guys ever know how it feels to have menstrual cramps?? NEVER. what they have is a dick.and balls. that's all. Im so angry at this particular guy who is so called my boyfriend. I should use my favourite word which even my maid at home knows that it's my all-time description to describe anyone that irritates me. Disgusting.
ok so im having a bad cramp today. i tried to sleep and i extended my sleeping time since i had a difficulty to really fall asleep. This caused us to cancel our shopping trip. ok i know he had been waiting for me the whole day....but no one expects that i would be having some stupid pains right?? so when i woke up and i called him, things seemed fine and i said sorry to him. i even ask twice if he's angry...and he said 'no..' i was like 'okay...' and then finally my weird feeling came true...he was not fine about it AT ALL. we started shouting at each other on the phone...he said he's not blaming me for having period pain but he blames me because i didnt limit my sleep. what a big joke! i slept for 2 hours til 5 and i think i totally deserve the sleep. look, im in pain and i didnt have a good night sleep,worriying abt my olevel today.. unlike him totally who has been playing some games til 2 and woke up only at 10+. and he's stupidly blaming me for sleeping for too long. he said..i did that on purpose bcos i feel it was okay to make him wait and cancel the trip. Oh gosh. even if i forced myself to wake up and go shopping..i dont think we'll have a great time with me complaining of pain here and there. anyway i admitted my mistake and i ask him so whats his fault this time..and he said he couldnt find any and want me to say it. if i were to say...it'll go like this. ' DO YOU KNOW HOW TIRED AND PAINFUL I AM FEELING? PLUS ALL YOUR SCOLDINGS AND U NEVER EVEN TRY TO UNDERSTAND ME. ALL U THINK IS THAT TIME IS RUNNING OUT AND REGARDLESS OF ANYTHING, I SHOULDNT HAVE CANCELLED THE PLAN. YOU THINK IM A ROBOT OR WHAT. AND I JUST PRAISED U AS A GENTLEMAN 2 DAYS AGO AND YET U ARE TALKING TO ME IN THAT MANNER. AND I AM ALWAYS AT FAULT IN EVERY SITUATION. U CLAIMED I AM YOUR FIRST LOVE BUT I FELT U TREAT ME JUST LIKE ANY OTHER GIRL." the worst thing is, when i totally broke down on the phone, he got damn fed up and say something like 'go ahead and cry all you want. i'll not give a single damn abt it' like WTF. in my whole entire life.................he's the first person and a GUY to say that to me. doesnt he realise how bad it felt when i already started crying? if it wasnt that bad, i wouldnt have broken down at the first place. PLus that stupid line he added on top of everything... i hang up the phone straight away. I couldnt take all the stupid things he's trying to scold and blame me about. and somemore, he said he is my slave n i order him around. then whats the point of being in a relationship???????? it is downright stupid. anyway its my first time to say 'WTF' to him..i cant take it anymore. ive apologised abt everything, he didnt accept it and even claimed that i did not even apologise. FOREVER like that. i feel that its like an excuse he's trying to find to keep blaming me for everything that happened. why??? come on man. its been 1 year and 5 mths and he's still behaving like that. dont u feel its childish? dont u feel so ungentlemanly? dont u feel sick and tired of it? oh i just remembered him saying that quarrels are okay........and i always take it too seriously. MAN. if this were a marriage...... i really cant imagine the ending. Should i feel sad or angry? or both? why does it happen alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll the time? i dont want. i dont want, u get me? no, u dont.
Guys are jerks.
although i still think that not all guys fall on that category.but MOST,yes.
cant u just understand? all i ever wanted is just your understanding and patience....and stop blaming others and not looking at what you've done yourself. I always admit my mistakes to you when these sort of things happen...but have you?
