I'm listening to jay's song, shan hu hai. It's so so so nice and it makes me feel so emotional whenever i listen to that song. today, i realised something really surprising..yes,it's about my first love. now i think,i always chose to express myself in this blog whenever it has got to do with him. i can't really believe that 2 yrs had just flown away like that.2 yrs seem to be 2 weeks.and why is my love life like a piece of novel? why is it all happening again?we had a heart to heart talk just now.i finally had the chance to tell him that he has always been in my heart. i was like waiting for him..and i am not sure if i am still waiting for him.ok,im being an idiot here.then how about eduw?? yes,i dont know.i mean,i never meant to feel this way.i don't want to..... but i can't control it.I want to be back like how we used to be.but of course,it can never happen that way.but really,fate has proven me wrong.i used to think i can never ever have the chance to see him again.but hey what's happening now..... my little piglet has always been next to him.he place it on his desk and little piglet sleeps next to him every night.til the card that's attached to it tore.haha.he never told me about that.but i never told him that he has always been in my heart.i think about him everytime....oh why why why.I told eduw about this ytd.i told him i love him but only as a bro.i know he doesn't believe that...and i know how afraid he's feeling right now.he doesn't want to lose me..i don't want to. but why am i loving two persons at the same time..it isnt fair. eduw..i'm so so so sorry.
PROFILE ♥
CINDY MARIA
Sweet Seventeen
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Waking up everyday with a thankful heart for the blessings from Him.
Because He has a great purpose for her.
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Sunday, March 19, 2006
9:55 PM
I'm listening to jay's song, shan hu hai. It's so so so nice and it makes me feel so emotional whenever i listen to that song. today, i realised something really surprising..yes,it's about my first love. now i think,i always chose to express myself in this blog whenever it has got to do with him. i can't really believe that 2 yrs had just flown away like that.2 yrs seem to be 2 weeks.and why is my love life like a piece of novel? why is it all happening again?we had a heart to heart talk just now.i finally had the chance to tell him that he has always been in my heart. i was like waiting for him..and i am not sure if i am still waiting for him.ok,im being an idiot here.then how about eduw?? yes,i dont know.i mean,i never meant to feel this way.i don't want to..... but i can't control it.I want to be back like how we used to be.but of course,it can never happen that way.but really,fate has proven me wrong.i used to think i can never ever have the chance to see him again.but hey what's happening now..... my little piglet has always been next to him.he place it on his desk and little piglet sleeps next to him every night.til the card that's attached to it tore.haha.he never told me about that.but i never told him that he has always been in my heart.i think about him everytime....oh why why why.I told eduw about this ytd.i told him i love him but only as a bro.i know he doesn't believe that...and i know how afraid he's feeling right now.he doesn't want to lose me..i don't want to. but why am i loving two persons at the same time..it isnt fair. eduw..i'm so so so sorry.
