i'm holding back my tears. when will this feeling goes away? i seriously hate it. i am confused. i really do. no one will ever understand how i feel. neither do i. i don't deserve all your love. because i can't,i just cant bring myself to love you. there isn't any thrill tt sparks in my heart nor any excitedness when i am with you. but i am happy. yes, just happy that someone out there actually care so much about me. he is still stuck in my heart. you're just waiting to come into my heart. but i've yet to open the door.i really really wish to tell you this..but i can't. i don't want to break your heart. i know how bad it hurts. sometimes.. i think we should have remained as friends first. it's all my fault i know. i thought that being with you will erased all the thoughts of him.i'm wrong. i only end up hurting you. please forgive me. i never want everything to turn out this way.. i have no idea how long we'll be together. but i've got the feeling that we won't last long. i'm guilty. frankly speaking, i am not really myself when i'm with you. I will have nothing to say. I really don't understand why the hell i'm like this. how long more do i need? 1 year has passed. but .... i don't know what else to say. i get jealous whenever she talks about him. like what's my problem?!!!!??! i havent been happy for the past few days. i've been having mood swings. i lost temper for the slightest things. i ignored his smses.
i'm sorry.
PROFILE ♥
CINDY MARIA
Sweet Seventeen
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Waking up everyday with a thankful heart for the blessings from Him.
Because He has a great purpose for her.
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Friday, June 24, 2005
3:08 PM
i'm holding back my tears. when will this feeling goes away? i seriously hate it. i am confused. i really do. no one will ever understand how i feel. neither do i. i don't deserve all your love. because i can't,i just cant bring myself to love you. there isn't any thrill tt sparks in my heart nor any excitedness when i am with you. but i am happy. yes, just happy that someone out there actually care so much about me. he is still stuck in my heart. you're just waiting to come into my heart. but i've yet to open the door.i really really wish to tell you this..but i can't. i don't want to break your heart. i know how bad it hurts. sometimes.. i think we should have remained as friends first. it's all my fault i know. i thought that being with you will erased all the thoughts of him.i'm wrong. i only end up hurting you. please forgive me. i never want everything to turn out this way.. i have no idea how long we'll be together. but i've got the feeling that we won't last long. i'm guilty. frankly speaking, i am not really myself when i'm with you. I will have nothing to say. I really don't understand why the hell i'm like this. how long more do i need? 1 year has passed. but .... i don't know what else to say. i get jealous whenever she talks about him. like what's my problem?!!!!??! i havent been happy for the past few days. i've been having mood swings. i lost temper for the slightest things. i ignored his smses.
