I chatted online with S just now. I was totally shocked when she asked me ... 'eh.. you still missing halim ah? 'like WATDA??!! ' i kept 'WAT' 'WAT'...haha. too shocked perhaps. this was part the conversation..
s: eh.. u still missing halim ah? me: WAt me: WAT s: haha.. juz asking. me: shocked face*. y suddenly ask? s:u ans me first.. me:erm.. aahem hem. suddenly dunno how to type* s: haha. ok. i take that as a yes me: ermm... heart stopped beatin* s: haha. alrite. nvm. me: WHY ..bitin nails* s: i oso leh!! (bitin nails) us: HAHAHAHA.. s: but i really sumtimes still do think abt him me: really..den..eh continue s: huh..nuthing to continue la. jus liddat me: eh. PLS. i still wana listen. s: nuthin. really. s: when i do.. i jus tell myself to stop la me: WHY s: he's gone. and he doesn't like me anw.. me: HELLO me: gulp* eh i wana ask u sumtin me: las time he told u he'l NEVER be back already heh? s: he said he willl most probably not cum back me: watda. idiot dopehead me: he erm...LIED to me s: heh. me: he said he'll COME back s: maybe he just didn't want to hurt u la me: heh. Makin stuff WORSE me: shud haf told me rite.. sapi him ar. s: hah me: made me go totally insane s: wad use is there to be angry wif him now la ***** skip skip******* me: haf u met him online b4? (afta he went back) s: no.. u? me: yep. =/ s: ok.. me: i tell u wen he cums online kay s: ok. ......................
Heh. so that was part of it. my goodness. i don't know how i was feeling. I felt like puking. no, that was not what i felt. i felt like crying. but no, i didn't really want to cry. I felt like ...TUUUUUUUUUUUUUT. yes. TUUT feeling. that's how I should describe my feeling. =( Huh. these few days i'm really sensitive. I felt like as if the whole world doesn't care about me. ESp my friend. She act BIG and stuff. I want a doraemon. I want his time machine. I want to travel to the past. I want to be with him. forever if possible. I want to change the whole thing. My heart is now feeling so sour. PLease hope i won't cry. because all the tears would not bring him back. The whole thing really souunds like a novel. it seriously shucks. no more SAPI. S, do you actually still blame me? I know.. it was my fault. but i have no idea everything would turn out like this, do i? i am really sorry. I'm such a lousy best friend.
PROFILE ♥
CINDY MARIA
Sweet Seventeen
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Waking up everyday with a thankful heart for the blessings from Him.
Because He has a great purpose for her.
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Thursday, February 10, 2005
3:55 PM
I chatted online with S just now. I was totally shocked when she asked me ... 'eh.. you still missing halim ah? 'like WATDA??!! ' i kept 'WAT' 'WAT'...haha. too shocked perhaps. this was part the conversation..
s: eh.. u still missing halim ah? me: WAt me: WAT s: haha.. juz asking. me: shocked face*. y suddenly ask? s:u ans me first.. me:erm.. aahem hem. suddenly dunno how to type* s: haha. ok. i take that as a yes me: ermm... heart stopped beatin* s: haha. alrite. nvm. me: WHY ..bitin nails* s: i oso leh!! (bitin nails) us: HAHAHAHA.. s: but i really sumtimes still do think abt him me: really..den..eh continue s: huh..nuthing to continue la. jus liddat me: eh. PLS. i still wana listen. s: nuthin. really. s: when i do.. i jus tell myself to stop la me: WHY s: he's gone. and he doesn't like me anw.. me: HELLO me: gulp* eh i wana ask u sumtin me: las time he told u he'l NEVER be back already heh? s: he said he willl most probably not cum back me: watda. idiot dopehead me: he erm...LIED to me s: heh. me: he said he'll COME back s: maybe he just didn't want to hurt u la me: heh. Makin stuff WORSE me: shud haf told me rite.. sapi him ar. s: hah me: made me go totally insane s: wad use is there to be angry wif him now la ***** skip skip******* me: haf u met him online b4? (afta he went back) s: no.. u? me: yep. =/ s: ok.. me: i tell u wen he cums online kay s: ok. ......................
Heh. so that was part of it. my goodness. i don't know how i was feeling. I felt like puking. no, that was not what i felt. i felt like crying. but no, i didn't really want to cry. I felt like ...TUUUUUUUUUUUUUT. yes. TUUT feeling. that's how I should describe my feeling. =( Huh. these few days i'm really sensitive. I felt like as if the whole world doesn't care about me. ESp my friend. She act BIG and stuff. I want a doraemon. I want his time machine. I want to travel to the past. I want to be with him. forever if possible. I want to change the whole thing. My heart is now feeling so sour. PLease hope i won't cry. because all the tears would not bring him back. The whole thing really souunds like a novel. it seriously shucks. no more SAPI. S, do you actually still blame me? I know.. it was my fault. but i have no idea everything would turn out like this, do i? i am really sorry. I'm such a lousy best friend.
